jjggff0723 (jjggff0723) wrote in vaginapagina,

Sick with worry. Pregnancy phobia and a weird period.

Hi everyone. I should preface this post by saying that I have an irrational pregnancy fear. I'm a hypochondriac in general who tends to do too much reading on the internet. I'm looking into some mental health counseling in the new year. I guess what I'm looking for is someone to tell me I'm overreacting. Anyway.

Back in October I had a bartholin cyst turn into an abcess. The ER I went to lanced me in the wrong spot and I was in agony until my gyno appointment where I got lanced a second time. I was physically and emotionally traumatized. At one week post op I got my period almost an entire week early.I called my gyno and he told me the stress and trauma my body had been through was likely the culprit. November's period came at its normal time (since stopping a problematic HBC my cycles have become shorter in general, but always between 24-27 days). This period was heavy! Like making up for lost time or something. It lasted for my usual five days, heavy at first then tapering off.

My boyfriend and I were finally able to have sex December 3rd. I use an app to track my cycle. I know it's not 100% accurate but it's always been fairly spot on for me. According to my app it was around the time I would be ovulating. I'm not on any HBC so we use condoms. We were both tipsy at the time (a bit irresponsible on our part) but as far as I know the condom was fine. He pulled out, I took the condom off of him, and he finished on my chest. I then hopped in the shower to rinse off.

I got my period on Friday of last week, the 15th, right on time. It started off totally normal, cramping (I also get leg cramps) and pretty heavy bleeding/clots. This lasted all day Friday and Saturday, but by Sunday it was all but gone and today all I have is a tiny bit of pink spotting. My periods normally last 5 days.

I've been reading about implantation bleeding, and the fact that bleeding can still occur with pregnancy. Does pregnancy seem like a realistic outcome of the encounter I described? He finished on my chest, but what if some semen dripped down onto me while I was showering? What if I had semen on my hand and accidentally touched my vagina? I can't exactly remember the details, I just know that I showered. I woke up in bed with my towel on. I've been having extreme panic attacks and am still very traumatized and fearful my cyst will come back. My heart races all the time and I can't sleep. Now I'm super paranoid about this. Could the change in my period length be stress related? I have EBV and am currently having a flare up due to the stress I've been experiencing..literally making myself sick with worry. Could my body's cycle still be trying to readjust from the initial trauma?

Sorry for the length of this, thanks in advance for any input.
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