I hope this is the right place to post this? It's something I've just discovered and realized I might have been struggling with for the past year.
Every month I notice that I go through an intense paranoia and hysteria in regards to my relationship. One minute the relationship is fabulous and I'm happy and relaxed and feeling good about where we are, the next I am paranoid, watching my phone, obsessing over the lack of messages, on the edge of tears, determined that he's bored, literally on the edge of breaking up with him and picturing what I'd say. This will last a week or so and then pass. To clarify he is a wonderful man and we are not in any way close to breaking up but it's gotten to the point that I don't even trust my own mind during this time.
I thought it was just me but I checked the calendar today and I am 2 weeks before my period on the dot, which is when my PMT usually begins to start. I looked this up and discovered premenstrual dysphoric disorder and that I am not the only woman suffering in the two weeks leading up to her period. Of course I have yet to track this properly over the coming months and so am wary of self-diagnosis, but it's definitely something that seems to come out of nowhere.
This has come as a shock to me, as all along I believed it was just my insecurity. Does anyone else here have any experience with PMDD and how to deal with it? It's very upsetting how much this affects my mental state within my otherwise happy relationship. Thankfully I have yet to unleash any of this on my boyfriend but I'm very worried what I may end up saying when I get particularly paranoid.