I have never had much of a sex drive. I never really got horny or turned on or had much desire with sex. I never masturbate. I had sex because I felt like I was supposed to. I spent 2010-2013 ish in an abusive relationship (rape+ emotional abuse) and spent since then mostly single and not bothering. A bit over a month ago I met an amazing cis male who is so caring and understanding and I really enjoy sex with him. I just still have no horniness. He can make me cum and sex feels great but I just don't randomly get horny or desire it. When it happens I enjoy it but I don't crave it or seek it out if that makes sense? I feel like I'm supposed to. How do I increase my sex drive?? I want to have one! I want to get horny and desire these things and get turned on. It's frustrating to me that I don't get these feelings. I feel like my body isn't built for sex? It takes so much effort to get me to cum and I can only do it on my back (also so frustrating) and I am not even turned on for most of it, halfway through being stimulated I'll suddenly get turned on 😩
Any advice? Medicine/vitamins that help? Anything? Or am I just not meant to have these sensations? Thank you!