For years, I heard horror stories about the hymenectomy I knew I needed. I heard that I would need to lay on a table upside down. My GYN said that I might need to use dilators and that idea scared me. I feared bleeding more heavily when I had my period, just because the menstrual blood would have more 'room' to come out.
In short, I put it off, for years, because it scared me. Who wants to undergo general anesthesia, right? When I did have it, only my partner and my best friend knew, not my parents (I'm in my 30's, but still), not my other close friends. I had surgery, and no one knew, because I was embarrassed about it. I felt like I was way too old to be dealing with this, that it would have been much less embarrassing if I had done it at 18 or something. For years, I used only maxi pads, and didn't have penetrative sex. I am a lesbian, but my sexual options were still limited. For years, I couldn't swim when I had my period, etc. I was somewhat sexually active, but couldn't have a pap smear, and that got more and more embarrassing to explain. Nurses would say 'undress for your pap' and I knew I couldn't get a pap. My hymen had an opening that was small enough for menstrual blood to get out, but not much bigger. I think my GYN got a Q-tip through the hole once, and it hurt. Obviously, no tampon or penis would have fit!
I had the surgery over a year ago, and wish that I had done it sooner! It was a complete success!
I was in the hospital for only a few hours, and unconscious very briefly. When they woke me up after the surgery, I couldn't believe it was over. I had minor bleeding afterwards, but less than a menstrual period. I was given a gel to numb the area afterwards, which I used for less than a week, and a strong oral pain reliever, which I never took! I was to use a wash bottle given to me at the hospital to spray the area with warm water after every time I peed, to clean it. The hard part about this is that I didn't want to be carrying a wash bottle into the bathroom with me in public bathrooms. I avoided wearing any tight pants for a week or two. It was summer and I'm a teacher, so I pretty much wore athletic shorts. I don't know that I had to do this. I was a little sore down there, and this kept me more comfortable.
The stitches disintegrated on their own. I didn't need to use a dilator, or to have anything more done, besides a check up to make sure it looked ok.
I had a pap smear within a month afterwards. I started wearing tampons within a month, without problem (besides the initial adjustment period), and have used them exclusively ever since. I love them (just as much as anyone can love tampons, anyways)! I can't believe I didn't do this sooner! I can now have penetrative sex, and I now feel 'normal' down there. Before, I felt broken, because my hymen was so thick and imperforate that surgery was the only cure. 'Who needs surgery to have sex?' I thought. Well, I did, and I wish I had done it sooner! I can now stick my fingers in there and feel around, allowing me to feel like I know my own body. I really felt like I didn't know a vagina felt before because I didn't have two obvious holes, ya know?
- No longer feeling broken