So, does anyone else get like this? I just guess it's good to know other people feel the same way. My doctor did suggest that I don't take my off week actually off and just start my new pack early (I can do this since where I live you don't need a prescription for bc) but then I spoke to my shrink about it and he actually asked me if I would feel better not having my period at all and I realized that no, I'd feel worse because then not only would I change a routine (I have issues with that) but it'd mean that I wouldn't have visual 'okay' that I am not pregnant. I know this is silly but this is how my silly brain works.
Oh and before anyone asks an unplanned pregnancy for me right now would NOT mean the end of the world. I mean, sure I'd have to buckle down a whole lot and money would be tight but it's not like I wouldn't have a place to stay or anything. I guess mostly the anxiety comes from it being unplanned. I have issues with plans and schedules that make me extremely anxious. This is where the anxiety is coming from and not from the act of BEING pregnant. It's actually the idea of reprogramming my life that scares me.