justforapicture (justforapicture) wrote in vaginapagina,

SUPERSTARS! I still can't have sex! And hemorrhoids: a hate/hate relationship

Okay. I've posted before about my issues with having sex. My boyfriend of 3 years and I have issues. He can't finish when he's having any sort of foreplay or sex with me, and for the past year and a half, sex has hurt TERRIBLY for me.
Last night, I told him I wanted him, and I did what I wanted to do. I told him to do something new when I decided I didn't want that anymore (I liked being in control). Anyway, I sat on top of him and he penetrated me once, and it hurt so badly that I clawed his chest and he lost his boner and slipped out. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?!
I always blamed my painful sex on one thing: hemorrhoids. I've had them for years, they never go away, and they're in a huge flare-up right now. But after a colonoscopy, my GI wasn't concerned, and my doctors never agreed that they could be the issue. I'm pretty sure I have anal fissures as well. When I can find a day to go to the doctor, I'm going to get a full work-up. Something isn't right.
So, if you have ANY tips for me, please help!
I'm looking for hemorrhoid cures (I have a very high fiber diet already :()
And any sex therapy advice. I'm unable to afford $150 a session elsewhere :(
Also, if you can, email me. It's always fastest. nevermissabeattt@gmail.com

Thank you all <3
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