Julia (horsemanure) wrote in vaginapagina,

Extremely bizarre request

I need someone to talk to. A friend.

I've been battling a phobia of sex - part vaginismus, part just fear in general - for a while now. I made a lot of progress over this year, but the last month or so, I've made so many leaps backwards I'm back to where I was years ago. Part of it may be that I just recently had to switch therapists and now I'm also only going once a month at most (and there's no way I can go more).

I need someone to talk to, though. Someone who understands vaginas and how much of a pounding they sometimes endure. I keep my boyfriend up to date with all of this, and he obviously is very supportive, but he can't do much more than support. He doesn't have any ideas, because he's new to all of this. I don't really have very many girlfriends, and the ones I do have either don't understand this stuff (never-been-kissed types) or I just recently met and I'm not comfortable talking about sex to just yet. I've been talking about it to one of my really good guy friends, and that worked for a while, but it's just starting to feel... weird. I'm pretty sure he likes me (but I don't know for sure), but with that vibe I just feel weird talking to him about the details of my vagina and my sex life, especially since it sometimes requires going into detail.

So if you're interested in making a new friend to talk to a bit, let me know. I have AIM, Skype, and Gchat. And hell, Facebook, too! I'm going crazy not being able to talk to someone who understands.
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