August 10th, 2002


when i bought the vagina monologues

i was in Gatwick Airport in london waiting for my return flight home. i was wasting time in the book store and came across something fabulous...
the vagina monologues
needless to say i went to purchase it immediatly, along with a cute card with a kittie on it. then, i went to meet up with my mom in another store and she asked me what i had bought. i told her. she got this look of total digust on her face. she asked me to show her teh book a few minutes later and she got mad at me! she called it trash and said she had half the mind to make me take it back. i tried to talk to her about it and help her understand. she told me that anyone could put a spin on anything (i dont get what she means by that). now i have to hide in my closet to read it so she wont glare at me. so she wont take it away. so she wont give me the silent treatment when i try to talk to her.
she reacted in a similar way when i bought Cunt.
arg, would she rather me hide things from her? not let her know my interests...not try to help her know me? its so hard when your own mom is like that. so hard.
oh well...
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Since most vagina-bearing superstars are also breast-bearing superstars

I've seen occasional posts here and on menstrualhut with questions about breasts, breast issues, etc. I'm certainly not complaining, but I was wondering if there isn't a community specifically for talking about breasts. I know about bustingout and breasticles, but they seem to focus specifically on big breasts. Other communities that show up on an interest search for 'breasts' seem to either be similar, or are porn communities. I'm thinking more of a community with a vagpag feel to it; an open forum for breast questions, discussions, and celebration.

If there isn't one, why, I shall start one. =)
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Emotions v's The Body

Greetings All,
Have had many happy hours reading previous posts and simply LOVE this community....
I recently had a termination (3wks ago), while physically it was fine, mentally and emotionally it was very traumatic as I had to re-evaluate my whole philosophy and understanding of life. My lover has a serious mental illness and even confessed to me that he had cheated on me, however we have remained together. The problem now, is that we both are desperate to re-connect and show our love to each other, yet once we get to actual penetration I loose it.
My thoughts start racing and I start visualizing him with this other woman etc.. I even jumped out of bed the other day with the urgent need to shower, I felt dirty inside, yet he had only just entered and I PUT HIM IN!!! Naturally he is devastated by what he has done and how he has hurt me, 'us'.
Should I just give myself more time?, I know we could do other things, but Im into penetration, plus he's not the best at the other stuff.. I really, really want it, but just cant go past a certain point... HELP!
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