But I have my reservations. I'm nervous about the idea of having to stick myself everyday (though, from what I've read, it doesn't sound like too horrible an ordeal). I'm also nervous about what sort of toll the hormones would take on my body. My usual PMS gives me sore breasts and some cramping, with cramps being the worst on the first and second day of my period (like, curled up in a ball sobbing unless I've taken at least 6 Naproxen). From what I've read, the hormone injections can actually worsen one's PMS symptoms. The two things I'm most nervous about, however, are this: what will happen to the unused embryos, and how will it affect my own fertility?
I'm generally pro-choice, though I'm fairly certain that should I be stuck with an unplanned pregnancy, I would not terminate, just because my own views are that a fertilized egg is life, whether it's human or "just a bunch of cells." So I'd have qualms if the unused embryos were destroyed, either in research or otherwise -- though legally I'd have no rights to the embryos, they are still biologically mine, and it would just feel like an abortion to me.
Also, like I mentioned above, I would like to have my own children someday, and I know that donating eggs can lead to early menopause (if only because you are now 15-18 eggs closer to not having any eggs left). As far as I know, I only release one egg a month, I'm almost 25 now, and have been menstruating since I was 13. I just don't want to get to a point where I'm ready to have children and realize I've used up all my eggs. 8D I know this is probably a silly fear, since I still have several hundred eggs left to me, and my mom was still having her period well into her 40s, but still.
Finally, a friend of mine suggested I look up the "post-op horror stories." I'm not sure if I want to do that, because I don't want to talk myself out of it, but she said it would be a good idea so that I could make a well-educated decision.
So, any thoughts/words of advice/wisdom/encouragement? I'm at the point where I'm filling out the application (I'm about halfway through it), and I'm sure I can back out at any time. I just want to make sure that I'm making a decision that's right for me with as much information as I can access. Thanks so much in advance. :)