Over the course of the last six months or so, I've made various posts regarding a vaginal infection/unknown vaginal pain. I believe that I have finally reached the end of my journey regarding my search for the source of the pain (sort of). I've been diagnosed with vulvodynia, which is both disheartening and in a way relieving, just in the sense that I finally have a diagnosis. I've been prescribed lidocane cream, and hopefully that should help with the pain. Something that I talked to my doctor about has me curious though: are there any folks who have had experience with vulvodynia here who have experienced a spontaneous cessation of symptoms? I know that some people experience vulvodynia chronically, sometimes even for the rest of their lives, but I've also heard of some people just having it for a period of time and then it goes away. I'm hoping with a combination of the cream and positive thinking that perhaps mine will just go away on it's own, but maybe that's just wishful thinking :/.
Next question! I've also been experiencing pretty bad pain during ovulation, which my gyno informed me is called mittleshmertz. I've also had really bad pain throughout the period, and even beyond, which has been cause for worry about endometriosis. I've had an ultrasound to rule out things like cancer or polycystic ovarian syndrome, but my gyno says the only way to rule out endo is through surgery. For now, I've been put on birth control to manage the pain until I could consult with someone who could do surgery (or if my pain gets better, I guess just continue with what I have). I've been put on junelle, and...I'm really worried about what will do to my body. I'm worried about weight gain, about breast size fluctuation (I've already had a lot change in my body the past few months, hips widening, breasts getting bigger, so the prospect of more change is kind of an overwhelming thought). Plus, new bras are expensive!! I'm also worried about the emotional side of things. I have been on birth control before, but it was quite a while ago, so my memory is a bit fuzzy. I'm in a really good relationship right now, and I have this irrational fear that I'm going to turn into a total bitch and sabotage everything. Ugh. I know that I have really bad body image, and if birth control can help me I absolutely should take it, but just have all this negative self talk running through my head. Logically I know that I'm at a better weight for my frame than I was a few years ago (I suffered from amenorrhea from being too thin and being stressed). Also, on top of all that, I was reading somewhere that birth control can for some people actually make vulvodynia worse :(. Sigh. Any words of wisdom then would be very helpful. Let me know if any clarification is needed!
As always, thank you everyone for all that you do!! :)