may_third (may_third) wrote in vaginapagina,
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"Baby rabies"

I feel like I'm going crazy!
In my 20's...engaged. Younger sister has been a teen mom for 17 months now. I have lived under the same roof with a baby, been woken up by him crying, done more than my share of feedings, have changed hundreds of diapers...etc.

But I am driving myself nuts trying to fight these REALLY strong urges to get pregnant! It's terrible and I want it to stop! My fiance and I are definitely not ready to have a baby, we want to be married and settled with careers and all that...but these urges are not going away. Even before we were engaged I've had them...And I want to get rid of them, desperately, but I feel like there's nothing I can do!

I don't know if it's A, being madly in love with and extremely attracted to my future husband and feeling like I've found my "mate" for life so to speak, B, my age/biology, or C, I'm just nuts.

I just spent the last couple hours trying to watch things like that show Teen Mom to try to counteract the urges by watching how hard it is for young people to raise kids, but it kind of made everything worse. Then after that, I spent about another half hour to an hour watching water birth videos and informational clips and reading about natural birthing positions...FML.


Any advice, VP? :( Anecdotes? Comforting words? Tell me I'm not alone/nuts?
I don't know if it'd have anything to do with it, but I am also on HBC, the pill--Microgestin FE 1/20 to be exact.

How do I get rid of these thoughts of wanting to be pregnant/have a baby? I go to bed at night and just imagine myself and my fiance curled up in bed with a baby. I've also been dreaming about it. HELP ME D:
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