Basically, I'm just really freaked out right now, and I don't know where else to find rational info/ reassurance.
I've been with my current partner since July. (26 y/o heterosexual male). We used condoms for approximately the first month of our sexual relationship, then, for whatever reason, stopped. He did pressure me, but I didn't stand up for myself either... We haven't used them since.
This weekend I found out that he's had many more sexual partners than he originally told me, which kind of freaks me out, but what freaks me out more is our condom use. I feel like if he was sloppy with condom use with me, he was probably sloppy with other partners too. Neither one of us have any symptoms or issues, but I'm terrified. I tried to make an appointment to get tested this morning, and I literally started to have a panic attack and had to hang up the phone.
Thoughts/ advice? Anything to make me feel better is appreciated at this point. :(