gaiman_phile (gaiman_phile) wrote in vaginapagina,

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What are the odds? (X-posted in menstrualhut and birthcontrol)

Okay, so first I want to apologize if this post is all over the place . . . it's very early in the morning and I'm not really right in the head at this hour. :/

I haven't had a period since 7 August (the first day of my last period). 6 months and 3 days ago, I had a tubal ligation along with removal of endometriosis. There were two spots she couldn't remove because they were too dangerous. One spot was on the artery that supplies my left ovary - yet ALL of my pain is on my right side - and the other spot is on my colon.

I had a shot of Lupron on 14 June and was told it would fix the problem. Wrong. It was supposed to stop my periods, yet I bled in July, I bled in August, both were very heavy - like always - and both were almost a week long, complete with the excruciating pain. The Lupron shot was a 3mo one, instead of the one month one, and it made me sooooooooo crazy, I decided I wasn't going to go through that mess again. I was an emotional roller coaster ride from h---, and I was scaring not only my family and friends around me, I was scared of myself. Yeah, it was that bad. :( I've never had Lupron before, and I don't think it would've taken that long to stop my period, but . . . yikes. I'm scared out of my wits right now as to what the heck is going on inside my body.

There has been only two major stressors, but stress really doesn't cause me to miss my period. I've been having periods since I was 13 years old, and whenever I've been under stress, my periods were always heavier. The only two stressors that I endured were a house fire which was the beginning of August, the 2nd day of my period, and I had an issue with someone who I had moved into her old house and she was going to rent it to me, just to bring her ex-husband into the mix, and . . .well, it was a mess, but I've since moved on, and I handled it with far more grace than I thought I had in me. I've gone through worse, trust me. I've never, ever missed a period b/c of stress, and I don't get stressed very easily. There are things that do get to me, but I rant for a day, and I'm fine after that. This is just . . . I'm . . . needless to say, this is not normal for me to miss a period. Not unless I'm expecting. I have had 3 children - one of which was a stillbirth - and four miscarriages. The most recent being 26 July last year. :(

After my surgery in April, I had about a month with no pain, where I'd endured constant pain since just after my sexual assault last June. The pain came back and with a vengeance. I feel like I have Freddy Kruger, Leatherface, and all sorts of other nasty eggs of cinematic and societal psychosis having Anger Management inside my poor little pelvis. :(

I haven't had sex since the end of July, right before I moved to Missouri to start my life afresh. I'm wondering, though, because I have a couple of friends who keep insisting I could be pregnant, what are the odds of a woman who had a tubal ligation getting pregnant despite having such done so as to prevent pregnancy? I'm 35 and really don't want children. The miscarriage I had last summer was a result of the assault, and I wasn't quite 6 weeks along when I miscarried.

I'm just curious, because I've heard it's pretty rare to get pregnant after a tubal ligation. I'm planning on getting a test this week, just in case, because in large part due to a lack of a period for September, and I'm late for October by a week. I have been feeling really sick the past few weeks, about 3 now, and I'm getting concerned. Has anyone ever heard of this happening? I'm seriously too old to have anymore kids, and I'm single, and I would be alone raising a child if I did come up positive for pregnancy. I just . . . I don't want anymore babies. I'm on medication for depression and PTSD, and I think that the meds I am on - Seroquel (100mg at night so I can sleep and not have nightmares - I know it could cause diabetes, but I begged to be kept on it because it does help keep the nightmares at bay) and Celexa (30mg during the day) - would cause serious issues for a fetus, and if I am pregnant . . . . I shudder to think what damage could've been done. I had a stillborn 12 years ago because I was on some heavy meds for depression back then and didn't know I was pregnant until about 9 weeks along.

After my assault, I was tested during my pap which I had done very soon after, for any possible STD's and VD's and any other sorts of D's. Luckily for him, I came up negative. Yes, I know my attacker. A big part of the reason I moved was b/c of him. We lived in a big city, but he kept popping up everywhere, and I felt that I would be in prison if I had stayed put. It was far too tempting to toss him under a bus had I stayed. So, I moved to be closer to family, 15h away, and to start over and just pick up the pieces and move on.

Thank you in advance for any and all information you may be able to offer. I put the warning and a cut as possible triggers, as I don't know who may have endured such a horrible thing, and I do not want to upset anyone.
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