I hope someone can offer some advice. I am absolutely despairing right now. I went back on Cerazette in July, after being off it since last September while I was undergoing medical tests and ultrasounds, I was diagnosed with PCOS but my periods were regular. I really liked having a natural cycle and ovulating every month but was not comfortable having sex with just a condom, so my BF and I stuck to oral and manual stuff. I was seeing a therapist for my medical issues and she basically said it was crazy of me to just not have sex with the BF and that there was no reason not to go back on Cerazette. I hadn't had a bad time on it last time, bar a few annoying side effects such as hair loss and lots of discharge, so I started back on it. And guess what, I STILL haven't had sex. Between the on-off bleeding, the BV I keep getting and constant itching, I've never felt well enough to have sex. I also have barely any sex drive (this wasn't an issue last year), broke out badly when I started the pill (it's settling down a bit now) and right now am having some terrible, terrible cramps, which I've never had a problem with before. I was told to give it a chance, but it's 3 months now since I started and I don't feel like things are getting much better. The last 'period' I had was 6 weeks after the first and much lighter, but now I've started to bleed again.
What should I do? Part of me just wants to stop the wretched thing. I hate taking it every day and I hate putting hormones in my body. Another part of me wants to stick with it as I've come this far, and maybe things will improve and I'll be able to enjoy a normal sex life like I did last year. If I came off it now, is it likely to just mess up my body completely?