Is this normal? My bf and I have tried everything. I hate oral, it feels very strange and more ticklish than anything else to me. I'm uncomfortable with masturbation and the few times I've tried it hasn't felt like anything to me anyway. We've tried vibrators, I'm too ticklish for them. I experience no pleasurable sensation in or around my clitoris, and while I'm aware of touch in the area, it doesn't feel good. He could just as easily be touching my arm and it would be no different to me. It has been that way as long as I can remember. I'm 19 years old and have been sexually active since I was 15, though I didn't experience intercourse until I was 16. I don't know what to do, I'm at a point of where I'm starting to think I'm just broken.
This has caused a lot of stress on both myself and my bf, he feels like it is his fault that I don't enjoy sex even though I've talked to him about it and told him otherwise. We're still active together, but I mostly do it for his sake because I have no desire to. It doesn't repulse me, I'm very neutral feeling about it. I like cuddling but not kissing, and I still end up wet and physically prepared for penetration though I don't really know why that happens because I feel nothing leading up to it. We've been together off and on for the past 4 years, he was my first and though there were two other guys in between it was no different with them. I've researched asexuality and while some if it makes sense to how I am, I don't think I'm asexual. Does anyone have any advice, input, or stories to share experiencing something similar? Thank you to everyone who took the time to read this.