kwaniesiam (kwaniesiam) wrote in vaginapagina,

No senstaion during sex?

I feel nothing during sex. I never have and never have any desire to ever have sex anyway and I've never had an orgasm. It was like this before I was on any form of HBC, I'm on the depo shot now but I have only been on it for one month. I do have hypothyroidism and am still trying to sort everything out with that. I take Armour Thyroid and a T3 only medication as well called Liothyronine. I'm also anemic and have very low iron levels, I was on a supplement for it but that was causing digestive troubles so I'm scheduled for an IV on the 15th instead. I know that my thyroid condition has kept my sex drive practically non-existant but I've been on medication for 3 years now and it still isn't regulated to the point of where my symptoms are eliminated.

Is this normal? My bf and I have tried everything. I hate oral, it feels very strange and more ticklish than anything else to me. I'm uncomfortable with masturbation and the few times I've tried it hasn't felt like anything to me anyway. We've tried vibrators, I'm too ticklish for them. I experience no pleasurable sensation in or around my clitoris, and while I'm aware of touch in the area, it doesn't feel good. He could just as easily be touching my arm and it would be no different to me. It has been that way as long as I can remember. I'm 19 years old and have been sexually active since I was 15, though I didn't experience intercourse until I was 16. I don't know what to do, I'm at a point of where I'm starting to think I'm just broken.

This has caused a lot of stress on both myself and my bf, he feels like it is his fault that I don't enjoy sex even though I've talked to him about it and told him otherwise. We're still active together, but I mostly do it for his sake because I have no desire to. It doesn't repulse me, I'm very neutral feeling about it. I like cuddling but not kissing, and I still end up wet and physically prepared for penetration though I don't really know why that happens because I feel nothing leading up to it. We've been together off and on for the past 4 years, he was my first and though there were two other guys in between it was no different with them. I've researched asexuality and while some if it makes sense to how I am, I don't think I'm asexual. Does anyone have any advice, input, or stories to share experiencing something similar? Thank you to everyone who took the time to read this.
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