I never had much of a sex drive, but I think now that I've gotten older (and switched from the pill to Mirena), it's starting to rev up. I've never really been able to orgasm from sex, but that doesn't particularly bother me.
What I'm having a problem with, however, is experimenting with new things sexually. I'm sexually shy.. I even have a hard time looking my boyfriend in the eye while we have sex (and this doesn't have anything to do with my feelings for him). I'll try any position... but there's no way I could ever talk dirty, role play, strip, or anything like that. I can't even really initiate sex.. I'm not sure how to approach it (I'll lay on top of him while we're in bed together sometimes and wait for him to get a clue). I feel awkward trying to stick my hand down his pants and feel like it would seem like it was coming out of nowhere. Anyways, you get the point.
I suppose it's probably a confidence issue, although in every other area of my life I don't lack confidence. I just feel silly trying any of these things.. I guess I don't feel like a really sexual creature.. I have a hard time being "sexy." I blame it at least partially on my upbringing.
I really want to get in touch with that part of myself.. I think it would drive my boyfriend crazy and in a way, I would feel much more womanly if I could express myself in this way.
Anyone have any tips for me? Thanks so much :)