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For the VP Team
So, I have PMS. Except that it's not the normal kind where you get a little bit weepy, and maybe want to chow down on some chocolate bars, but it's the kind that intrrupts my life with full-blown psychotic episodes for a week, and makes me completely unable to function around people when it hits. I'm really looking for some advice on what to do about this. This pattern has persisted since I was a teen, and every time that that time of the month hits, I become incredibly emotional, incredibly aggressive, and horribly suicidal. I spent the last PMS period that I had self-mutilating, and fantasizing about skinning myself alive. We are not talking about normal PMS. The other three weeks out of the month (ish -- I have extremely irregular periods) , I am a pretty normal, happy girl -- a little shy, but nothing to suggest that any *really* major things are wrong with me -- but when Aunt Flo comes knocking, I go, quite literally, insane.
When I've tried to talk to either psychiatrists, psychologists or gynecologists about what's going on, I've been pretty much brushed off, and, frankly, I'm sick of the way that the last ten years of my life have been going. I'm sick of my periods turning me into a monster.
What's wrong with me? Do any of you have *any* ideas of *any treatment, conventional or otherwise, that could help me? And how on earth can I get a doctor to treat this seriously?