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For the VP Team
I have 3 years ago I was diagnosed with vulvodynia, vulvar vestibuledynia, and vaginismis. Also for 3 years I have been in an monogamous relationship that I am slowly coming to realise that needs to end. During the duration of my relationship's physical intimacy I could never be penetrated with a finger because of all of my sexual dysfunctions and pain issues. I honestly thought that I would have to get surgery to be able to accommodate any sort of penetration.
I am just going to be honest, and I hope you won't judge me. But I have fallen for someone else and we've become intimate with each other.
I am so used to constantly being in pain during intimacy and being limited to oral and manual stimulation. My body would flinch violently if a finger or tongue went too far down my vulva.
But this is different. So very different. It doesn't hurt. I don't flinch. My new partner can touch me anywhere. I have a labido again. I am having fun. For the first time ever.
One nite on a whim I ask my new partner to try to penetrate me with a finger, which would have normally resulted in intense and unbearable pain. He did, cautiously. And there was nothing! I felt no pain, only pleasure.
Honesty, I never associated penetration with pleasure because I always figured that it would be devoid of sensation and feeling. But even one finger felt amazing! I was amazed and over the moon.
After practising with a finger I just decided to jump right into intercourse. If this was a fluke with a expiration date I wanted to do everything possible. I'm 24, and have been forced into unwanted celibacy and abstainance and I am sick of it.
We've been trying, little by little and it's amazing. Now I are why people want to have sex! It's not awful, or uncomfortable, or boring, or painful. It's fun, sexy and I find myself enjoying it more than I ever thought I would.
Because I am new at this I have some questions:
1. To receive hbc from Planned Parenthood do I need to get a pelvic? I don't think I am ready for that step yet!
2. Out of curiosity why do you think I have miraculously healed?
3. We have located and stimulated my G spot! Yay! Now, how do I come from it?
4. In some positions like me on top and me lying on my tummy and being penetrated from behind causes a burning and intense stretching sensation. It's bearable to a point but the fact that both postions simulate my g spot so well I put up with it, for a while. Is there anyway to alleviate the pain? Or will it subside with time?
Thank you so much for any input you may have!