I don't feel bad about it. And I don't feel good about it. I feel nothing about it. How can that be? I feel like I should feel something, even if it's bad, but I don't. I feel nothing.
I've had sex with 8 guys now and looking back - with each guy, this is basically what happened (except for maybe one of those guys). I've never had good sex. Why can't I get pleasure from sex? Why do I keep having sex with guys I really don't want to have sex with?
I don't have anyone to talk to about this.