justagirl998 (justagirl998) wrote in vaginapagina,

Today I met a guy for the first time. I had sex with him. I don't even know his last name. I wasn't attracted to him. I knew this the moment I laid eyes on him yet I still went inside with him. Halfway through the sex I was looking forward to it being over and being able to go home. I didn't get any pleasure out of the sex.
I don't feel bad about it. And I don't feel good about it. I feel nothing about it. How can that be? I feel like I should feel something, even if it's bad, but I don't. I feel nothing.
I've had sex with 8 guys now and looking back - with each guy, this is basically what happened (except for maybe one of those guys). I've never had good sex. Why can't I get pleasure from sex? Why do I keep having sex with guys I really don't want to have sex with?
I don't have anyone to talk to about this.
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